||[Apr. 2nd, 2005|09:13 pm]
|||||Dispatch- Silent Steeples||]|
So here I am, where are you?
Friday was fun, unique people, lots of excitement, dodgeball, then night hike. Awsome.
Saturday morning was refreshing, first time back at the pool working and got to see some people I hadn't seen in a while.Sweet.
Saturday afternoon was completely surreal, flying kites with Michael, Elvin, The Cookie Monster, Elmo, The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, and the rest of the X kites. Michael and I untangled two of the biggest knots ever, with team work.Cool.
Saturday evening. Learning that I have been ditched by all of my friends except for one kid who always is at the butt end of jokes and dosent deserve it, Adam Mash. We played tennis and it was fun. I'm gonna stop giving Adam shit. Ok.
Walk home, depressing as hell. Just like it always is. Its me, alone, by myself, with nobody. And everysingle time I'm on this journey home I just think of why people are the way they are. How come the person who everyone, including me, makes fun of and hurts, is so kind as to invite me to play a match of tennis, and the people I am actually nice to "dont feel" like seeing me? Heres an actuall conversation I had with someone today.
Me:Will you call me later?
Person:Well I won't but someone else might.
The more this happens, and the more I think about it, I see myself as the tall goofey guy whose funny to watch. And thats it.This might not be true, and its probably not. Just someone tell me why.